EPIPHANY MOMENT (I THINK)?

 I had a somewhat epiphany at the end of my summer break that I didn’t think I would have come across. So, story short and little back story, me, yes, me, when it comes to dating life is how I would put it nonexistent. BUT it’s not solely in bad at it it’s just some guys just make me look at them stupidly and I’m not trying to put any guy down but my generation today just so off putting to me with the things they say and do like augh. Like I’m all in for entering a relationship. But I feel like if you have standards especially if some are just the bare minimum, you’re seen high maintenance or just (forgot the word) and it’s why men don’t want to talk to you they say, and that’s beside it. The real issue is- Oop I’m getting sidetrack but that’s the gist. 

Back to the summer break oh yes! I find it funny for me personally that I had two chances of actually seeing things through talking with these guys (no I didn’t talk to them at the same time, I could never do that, and I fear it’s a lot of work personally). They were nice and respectful and all but yk how you start observing anyone you start to talk to or have some kind of interest toward them? Yes, I did that and on top of that I’m a Christian girly so whenever I’m faced with anything whether it’s dire or not, I always come to God for my problems or venting. And so, I of course prayed about my situation and tell me why, I started to see them a bit more that I wouldn’t really want to be around due to some issues of my own like if you like that then that’s you but me I don’t like it due to me having a strong sense of smell and all (if u get the hint, it’s smoking). It sucked but seeing this I try to not really judge and which I didn’t but there were other things that bothered me later. Fast forward a bit why did I find out they’re both in a friend group and very close (YIKES). You’re probably wondering why am I saying this? Well, I realized I can’t see myself dating anyone in a friend group that includes ones Ik and are connected to another (I have a feeling that if I did it’ll be weird in a way and especially if the group knew each other for a long time). Idk I may be just rambling and since I’m not saying much, I just feel I can’t date close knitted friend groups.